Well, I'm feeling much better now. :) I was going to write a review of Fiddler on the Roof and tell you why I think it is so brilliant, (looks at moving from a traditional to a modern/post-modern society, looks at the tragedy of life and the saving joy of love, made a play about Russian Jews being evicted from their homes that people want to watch!) but instead, I just want to touch bases and say "Wuz up?!":) I'm still writing from a foreign computer so I don't feel quite my Braidwood blogging self. I'm still looking for a job, and tommorrow I'm going to start recording songs for my own CD! (Ultra private label :) My new room is taking shape- I'm sleeping on a camping mat till I get my own bed and I just realized that is why I've been extra tired. And I must be doing crunches in my sleep, because it feels like my abs are getting a workout. Happy Summer's Day to you!
Categories: My Life
Friday, June 17, 2005
Monday, June 13, 2005
Moving Chaos
Hi,
I'm in my new home and this is my frst time online since Friday! That's a long time for me. All is chaos and boxes and purple and lime green walls (soon to be soft gold!) My computer is not hooked up to the internet and so I'm using my roommates super faster computer. She uses Internet Explorer as a browser. Wow, I'm so sorry all IE users, my blog looks atrocious in this browser. I am still looking for a job with several helpful leads from friends. Thank you, friends!
The job hunting process, moving, and my previous hostile roommate have combined forces to awaken all my primal fears. Do all fears eventually find their source in the fear of death? I've been having such waves of fear. It's intense. I'm remembering to be gentle with myself during this transition time. I'm listening to a Tony Robbins tape about overcoming fear while I organize. While I walked around my new neighborhood exploring today, I thought that I need to do some serious meditation or something. A friend said that it's better not to think about death and the bad things that can happen, but I want to have my eyes completely open and feel at peace. Today I'm working on ordering the small chaos in my room. I think when I have soft gold walls, everything will be ok. :) Good luck to all ya'll today.
Categories: My Life
I'm in my new home and this is my frst time online since Friday! That's a long time for me. All is chaos and boxes and purple and lime green walls (soon to be soft gold!) My computer is not hooked up to the internet and so I'm using my roommates super faster computer. She uses Internet Explorer as a browser. Wow, I'm so sorry all IE users, my blog looks atrocious in this browser. I am still looking for a job with several helpful leads from friends. Thank you, friends!
The job hunting process, moving, and my previous hostile roommate have combined forces to awaken all my primal fears. Do all fears eventually find their source in the fear of death? I've been having such waves of fear. It's intense. I'm remembering to be gentle with myself during this transition time. I'm listening to a Tony Robbins tape about overcoming fear while I organize. While I walked around my new neighborhood exploring today, I thought that I need to do some serious meditation or something. A friend said that it's better not to think about death and the bad things that can happen, but I want to have my eyes completely open and feel at peace. Today I'm working on ordering the small chaos in my room. I think when I have soft gold walls, everything will be ok. :) Good luck to all ya'll today.
Categories: My Life
Friday, June 10, 2005
Illustration Friday: Summer
Picture a surfer on the wave! (My paint program is on the fritz.) Happy Summer!
Categories: Visual, Illustration Friday
Thursday, June 09, 2005
The Value of Inner Work
I have become convinced that doing inner work is one of the most effective ways to get results in my outer life.
For example, I used to try and figure out how to make friends. I needed friend-making skills and I watched what good friend-makers did. Skills are important to gain, but there are so many intricate signals that people send out, that it is hard to replicate them consciously. Now, I just naturally attract smart, kind, fun people. (“Amen!" Say all my friends. :) And it is a result of doing inner work that had nothing to do with the goal of attracting good friends. In fact, it was strange when I noticed that I didn't have to try and get that kind of person to like me anymore. That's just who seemed to be around me. It was like the actual outer world had shifted. Unlike some people, I don'’t attribute this to any mystical forces. It is simply that we have fairly small orbits and what seems to be our whole world is just made up of the daily people, places, and activities we experience. Because of what we think, believe, and feel, we make certain decisions and socially, give off many subtle signals. This determines what is in our daily world and so this can make the whole universe seem to shift.
Next post: My inner work plan for the Summer.
Categories: My Life, Well Being, Essay
For example, I used to try and figure out how to make friends. I needed friend-making skills and I watched what good friend-makers did. Skills are important to gain, but there are so many intricate signals that people send out, that it is hard to replicate them consciously. Now, I just naturally attract smart, kind, fun people. (“Amen!" Say all my friends. :) And it is a result of doing inner work that had nothing to do with the goal of attracting good friends. In fact, it was strange when I noticed that I didn't have to try and get that kind of person to like me anymore. That's just who seemed to be around me. It was like the actual outer world had shifted. Unlike some people, I don'’t attribute this to any mystical forces. It is simply that we have fairly small orbits and what seems to be our whole world is just made up of the daily people, places, and activities we experience. Because of what we think, believe, and feel, we make certain decisions and socially, give off many subtle signals. This determines what is in our daily world and so this can make the whole universe seem to shift.
Next post: My inner work plan for the Summer.
Categories: My Life, Well Being, Essay
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Some random links...
from this week of web surfing:
An interesting article about mothers in the news:
Categories: Links
An interesting article about mothers in the news:
The discussions in my aerobics class, like the media coverage from which they originate, are skewed in many ways. Often, for example, the intensity of anxiety stands in inverse proportion to the prevalence of the problem.Setting the record straight about family myths, and a great article deconstructing a psychics reading.
Categories: Links
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